I'm so super stressed out. Why does everything always fall on me? I've been doing everything I can and its not good enough. i stayed even when i found out about the ultimate bertrayal. I can't be strong anymore. Everyone has a breaking point. Well this is  mine. For 6 years, my life has been taking care of kids(since Gabe was born). I love them and would do anything for them.  But no matter what I do for anyone else, its never good enough. I love Greg enough to still be here through all the crap we have been through. Hes been gone for 3 days hanging out with people. Ive been stuck at the house. No money, no gas in the car.  Im the one people come to and ask if we have had any job leads and if we have filled out any applications. Im relying on the state of wisconsin for food and insurance, and family to pay our bills. My life has hit a downward spiral and I cant do anything to stop it. I feel incompetent because I cant provide for my kids who both have special needs. I dont have a place for us to live to call our own. I have not had a night out with just my husband in about 5 years. everything is just falling apart and theres nothing I can do to stop it. i dont feel loved or cared about. I feel like freiends i thought were mine too only tolerate me because of Greg. Im just hurt by alot of things. And the one person Im supposed to beable to talk to doesnt understand. doesnt care. ive tried, ive been there for him through everything. I know life isnt easy, but this is ridiculous. im not wonderwoman. i cant fix everything myself. i need help. and im tired of getting crap when i ask for it