rant.

Ugh.  I asm so frustrated with a lot of things as of lately.  Mostly with how Greg is treating me and the kids since we have been here.  I have been feeling like he doesn't care.  He will go and help everyone else with things and get them to the places they need to go, but when I have something scheduled for the kids its like I am on my own.  I get NO help with anything.  I am the one who gets up with Gabriel in the morning. I am the one who gets him over to school on time for the breakfast program.  I am the one who helps him with his homework.  I make sure sean sits on the potty to potty train him.  I'm the one who makes sure the kids have what they need....even taking an ass ripping from gregs sister because we ask for help when we need to. He quit his job a month after we came up here because its too far of a drive and he has no place to stay on weekends when hes working to save gas. Fine, that I get.  i would have done the same. But as it stands right now, he barely spends time with the kids.  Ive been the one taking them to parks and to the pool and everything when we had the apartment.  I was the one who walked an hour with them to the other side of Elk Grove to the library and the other parks there when we were in the hotel.  I'm the one who makes sure the boys get to their appointments.  I do the paperwork so we have a way to get food.  And about to call  to apply for the W2 Wisconsin works thing cause we need some cash coming in right now.  Not once do I get 'wow honey, you do a lot for us to make sure we are taken care of" or "i'll take the kids for a bit so you can have some downtime".  Everywhere I go, the kids are usually with me. And when I did get a chance to go out with friends, I got an attitude about it cause I was leaving the kids home.  Sorry, But I need some time to myself too.  and when i TRY to talk to anyone, even Greg, I get the "i don't have a right to feel this way".  Well, sorry.  I do have a right to and its how I feel. the only one who lets me vent is Greg's mom but I don't see her on a regular basis and she doesn't need my issues piled on her either. Shes got her own things happening.  My thing is, he cared enough to stay.  He cared enough to tell me we will find a way with having two kids, yet it seems like I am the only one putting forth any effort.  When you care enough to stay, then you need to be involved, and know what's happening with your children.

Sean has a speech therapy evaluation on Thursday afternoon, and I had to reschedule Gabe's appointment again for the 2nd time cause AGAIN greg was asked last minute to take his uncle to Janesville to see about his insurance and stuff. I am not rescheduling again. Gabriel needs updates immunizations or they can not let him go to school.